How a three-decade, madly challenging journey that almost brought a
fierce optimist to her knees, multiple times, became the inspiration for a mission
to bring more awareness, joy and unity into the lives of others.

the force of my nature 
Wildly positive at heart, it would take a serious amount and degree of adversity to push me beyond my absolute limits and the end of my rope. But with its infinite options, and a somewhat dark sense of humor, the Universe delivered just the right type and sequence of affairs to keep me on my toes and an ongoing quest for 30+ years.

A pursuit filled with curious new directions and challenges. But however challenging and too many experiences I would very much like to keep in the past, they are what have allowed me to grow in ways that would never have been possible without them, nor what I have been able to or will create. For that, I am deeply grateful, as well as now being able to use it to maybe guide others, sharing whatever may be of inspiration or help in some way.

"We will either find a way or make one" ―Anibal Barca

I've always been pretty much a determined but go-with-the-flow kind of gall, but over time and increasingly so, the degree and combination of difficulties that kept coming and changing has driven me to the absolute edge of my sword, allowing me to discover my warrior spirit. Well, more of it I guess, as I've always been quite the fighter. All the while growing into a more expressive, extraverted version of my super shy younger self ;).

All of my creations are different keys to my voice, now mostly through language. Speaking from the eye of an amount and severity of storms most people will never be able to imagine, allowing me to discover a beauty most may never witness. As well as to see how much more common ground we unwittingly share with the potential to fill our societies' growing divide.

Grateful to still be alive, my writing and poetry is a testimony of my transformation within a life of unfathomable hardship and challenges in all areas simultaneously, beating the odds in more ways than one, while focused on themes and the world at large.

“Creativity is intelligence having fun.” ―Albert Einstein

This website is a visual representation of how I live: following my heart and inspiration, even when it feels (super) scary. This means stepping out of my comfort zone quite a bit. One of those ventures, to publish my heart and soul titled Emerald Heart (that became a fascinating journey of its own), resulted in the website you're on now. Inspired by someone muy especial through a life-changing connection, writing has become my passion and purpose. Read more (with samples) or check out my bio & publications.

high vibrational, down to earth

A resident of the coastal region of that quaintly shaped country, I was born and raised in a small city in the east of The Netherlands. I've mostly always been very practical, although spiritual in some sense. Through the magic of my life's journey however, I was introduced to a beauty and perfection I could not have imagined in my wildest dreams. Which naturally came with getting more and more spiritual over the years, while still very down to earth ―I'm still interested in, honest and ethical, science for example but also the very earthly things and joys of life.

Because I believe both are part of and related to the same source and origins of existence, simply different angles and ways of experiencing, understanding and appreciating consciousness. Enjoying the best of both worlds I guess. For me, the perfect combination and fully embodying 'my spiritual self having a human experience' as they say, although usually not in that context. To me, the human or earthly aspect is equally important, it's what we came here to experience.

30 years ago, the summer of '93, blissfully unaware of the  crazy journey ahead of me

creative and intuitively passionate

A curious Dutch(wo)man with a fierce zest for life, I have always loved to create. Unfortunately, because of health issues that became progressively severe I've never been able to do much. I found ways however, or created them rather, to do whatever I could whenever possible. In often the tiniest of steps taking infinitely longer than it normally would, while making impossible and even inhumane choices. But a result is a result, and no one seeing it has an idea of its many, uncommon challenges and process behind it.

Creativity is what I breathe it seems, and the continuous flow of inspiration I've had for as long as I can remember already holds so much more ideas than I could ever put into creations in several lifetimes. And so, I've always done and will continue to do all I can to honor as much of it as possible, because I see creativity and inspiration as a beautiful gift I do not want to waste. Combining a passionate nature with an intuitive one I am deeply grateful for what I've been able to create, especially my writing, that I hope to be able to share with the world: to reach the ones who are meant to find it. So, although being creative isn't anything new for me by far, the areas in which I create and the direction I continue to feel (intuitively) guided definitely is.

Echoes Of Silence (chapbook, 2023); Unity I Am (extended, 2022-2023); Emerald Heart, revised and extended, 2020-2023); one of my quotes within design; and a handmade vintage metal  12th scale miniature working fan